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Psychotherapy
03:38
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It's time to be straight
To lay it all on the plate
I'm psychopathic to best describe my mental state
For years I've hid the way
What's on my mind almost every day
I've been disturbed since my birth, it only got worse
I guess we're all born with some sort of curse
Rapid thoughts of mixed emotions
An endless cycle of going through the motions
This is the part of me
I thought I'd let you all see
So welcome to my Psychotherapy
I've never opened up to anyone
About what's rattling up above
So here's whats going on
An aching headache that
Might as well be a dead space
I'm torn between sin and grace
Insomnia growing every night
The moment sleep becomes a fight
I can feel the demon as he bites
With no haven in sight
It's only a matter of time
Before my humanity loses the fight
How does one cure my psychopathy?
How do I kill what I cannot see?
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Agitated
03:15
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Agitated, agitated get away from me
Red is all that I'm beginning to feel and see
Don't come near me even if you feel the need
It's safer just to leave me be
First things first I've got a lot on my chest
And none of it has been laid to rest
There's some shit that I wanna confess
But at the same time it just shouldn't surface
I've got a lot of things bottled up inside
They eat away at me yet I still act fine but
One slip up and I might snap
Forcing me into a rage inducing attack
So step the fuck back
You might mistake all my words for being depressed
But that's not the case - I'm just fucked in the head
You may think of me as all sweet and innocent
But my mind's racing with thoughts of violence intended
So push me one step closer to the breaking point
And I'll dismember you from every joint
So what's it gonna be?
Keep on running that motherfucking mouth and you will see that
There is no peace behind my eyes
This happiness is just a disguise
Don't need anyone on my side
When I have the devil inside
You're nothing but the dirt beneath my nails
This insanity prevails
This hatred has gone beyond all control
I'm out of touch with my soul
The damage has taken it's toll
Now the violence is joyful
Your will to live's gone out of the window
Stop acting like a king you're no fucking hero
If i let you live, I'll kill your ego
Leave you with nothing and make you hollow
Drag you by your feet and take you to the gallows
Enjoy your last breath, now fall like a domino
Agitated, agitated get away from me
Red is all that I'm beginning to feel and see
Don't come near me even if you feel the need
It's safer just to leave me be
I'm a puppet held by the strings of aggression
Sadism has now become my obsession
Agitated, agitated such a complicated mess
It's enough to eat you up and leave you in distress
A different outlook that makes you view the world less
The feeling that you wanna lay everyone to rest.
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Split
04:40
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So it seems theres two sides to my identity, one loves and one hates everything
An angel and devil on each shoulder, confused as to who i should be listening to.
Stuck, in this battle between good and bad
An endless struggle i wish i never had
Trying to find out who i really am
But at the end of the day i know i'm damned
Do i live my life
Wielding the knife?
Give into the black
Theres no coming back
Do i give into the puppeteer of my being?
A life full of unanswered questions
My head stacked of built up aggression
Turned to death for help, but the reaper had nothing to offer so i shot him dead
Where the fuck did all this hate come from?
I've always been one to just keep pushing on
Tried to never let anyone disrupt my peace
Now i wanna see every living thing deceased
Im paranoid that i'm gonna do something dumb
Maybe take all my mates out with a nail gun
Thoughts switch between loving and loathing
This split personality shits got me imploding
How can i talk about how i feel
When the fear of judgment is real
So i sit in silence, trying to give myself guidance, but all i hear is the sound of distant sirens
Deafening me to the point where i cant think straight, now leaving me in this dissociative state
I know that i annoy, and i know i frustrate
Ive always been one to make things aggravate
Its time to clean my slate
Please just bare with me as i make the choice and seal my fate
I resemble a ticking time bomb, every second theres a chance i might go off, will you risk being in my presence, will you risk it when I explode
Will you risk being in my presence
Will you risk it when i explode
But at the end of the day, we were all born to die
So ill lend you a helping hand, of sending you to the fucking sky
Perish
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Sadistic
03:32
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I see bodies falling from the sky
A visual that only intensifies
I imagine the things that you despise
What I think would leave you paralysed
I'm a sadist to my rotten core
Always obsessing over gore
Laughing at your pain give me more
Seeing you alive is a fucking eyesore
I dream a life fuelled by bloodshed
The feeling to be able to sever heads
I find nothing but humour in pain
Oh what I'd give to drain someone's veins
Whether you're a stranger or a mate
I've thought about sending you to the grave
I know right now I won't fulfil what I think
But when I'm around you, it would be wise not to blink
So many things I want to do, so many things I want to try
I wanna pry open your jaw and gouge out your eyes
Make a mess of your body and feed you to the worms
I'll teach you a lesson you'll never learn
Yeah I'm sick in the head
I know my humanity has fled
I dance with the dead
Don't try and be brave
I've made death my slave
It's so hard to behave
When all I crave is the
Sound of their screams
Sound of them pleading
Making them bleed
Sweet on the outside
Fucked on the inside
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Confined
02:54
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In the midst of all my perception, lies a darkness so profound
Unsure of what is real and what is fake, I hear it make a sound
Echoing voices coming down the hall;
The walls I swear I can hear them screaming
Taunting me with their words, they feed off my fear
Staring me dead in the eyes as I watch them sneer
Bellowing with rage, the shadows start to shape-shift, shattering my being
Descending into madness that I can't escape
A living hell that's taken my realities place.
So let's take a look back at my family tree
No underlying mental illnesses, what went wrong with me?
A perfect childhood I lived as far as I could see
Only a few stages where I was left feeling empty
But I spiralled down the void of malevolence
The evil within took over my mindset
A tragedy that my brain got led this way
Only a fragile string of sanity left to remain
Do I cut it off and live the rest of my life astray?
A new path, new me, welcome to the devil's play
So with all thats been said, leave me confined to these four walls
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